I am a planner by nature, always have been.

My current profession is a Project Manager, but my life in its present moment isn't really all that planned.  I am working on making peace with that. I seem to be right in the middle of a crossroads.

• About a year ago I moved across the world from Seattle to London to get my MBA.
• About two months ago, I gave notice at my job to be able to travel and explore and breathe a bit this summer.
• A few weeks ago I gave notice on my current flat as I realized that I although I love my current flatmate (as they call them over here), I really treasure having my own space.

So this means I will get back from exploring Spain, Portugal and who knows where in August and I'll be jobless and homeless. The craziest part about this – is that when I look at myself a few years ago there is no way that I would be OK with any of these situations (i.e traveling alone, quitting a job before having another one lined up, and giving notice on an apartment at a time when I'll be traveling and unable to find a new one).

So – What makes it different now? 

I believe deep down that I am never alone. I am able to take these leaps of faith because I am trusting that I am being guided and supported and that ultimately they will all  lead to my further growth and development.

How do I make peace with uncertainty?

I trust that everything is going as it's supposed to, that I am exactly where I am meant to be, and that I am  loved and supported always.

How do I get to a point of trusting?

Well I can break it down to four things that I have actually gotten from 3 different courses here from the Intention Inspired Team (30 days of Brave, 30 days of Love, and 30 days of Enlightment)

1. I realize how brave I already am – and know that I can handle anything that comes my way

As co-founder of Intention Inspired Matt has said in his introduction to 30 Days of Brave “You are already brave… I guarantee it,”   I have actually had quite a few people in my life recently comment on my bravery in different contexts. I can see how far I have come. How much I have flexed this brave muscle of mine, and how each time I do, it makes this whole level of a trust thing a bit easier.

2. I release and let go of any expectations that I have – holding onto what I want but letting go of all the details

This came from Sonja's 30 days of Enlightenment series – In Day 6 – I am content – she talks of how expectations are just resentments under construction. What I am working on is holding onto what I want (an amazing job that I love and will be perfect for the rest of my time in London, an adorable flat that I will have all to myself and be my sanctuary, and the best traveling experience EVER 🙂  So I hold onto that, but let go of exactly what it looks like. Sonja talks about imagining some type of higher power. I know everyone's spiritual path is unique and individual to them, but for me personally, I take such comfort in believing that there is a Higher power/presence/God supporting and guiding me always.

 

3. I do my best to stay present and grounded in the current moment.

I am human, I'm not perfect, I can still get caught up in  worrying about the future or overanalyzing the past, however, the difference between me now and me a few years ago, is that I am aware of when I slip into these thought patterns and I do my best to break the cycle and get back to the present moment. While I have gained this throughout all of the different Intention Inspired courses, I particularly honed in on this during 30 Days of Love with Amy Leo.  On Day 17 – I am scared,  I  had one of those of A-HA moments where I saw that there was nothing I needed to fix,  that I am perfectly imperfect.

Amy talks about how our fears of the future are an incomplete equation. I am scared of something that hasn't even happened (I.e being a crazy homeless person in London). When I see myself moving into these thought patterns of “how am I ever going to find a job?” And “What if I really can't find a flat” – I acknowledge them and let them go. I realize that worrying about that future flat and job right now in this moment – doesn't actually do me any good. I then go back to item number two and work towards releasing that fear/worry to a Higher Power that I believe is guiding and supporting me and then go back to number one to acknowledge the bravery that I have developed from stepping out on this journey in the first place.

Do I still have moments of fear and doubt? Of course. But I don't beat myself up for them anymore. I think that has been a final thing that has been key for me as I am working towards making peace with uncertainty and the final bullet point of this list

4. I have love and compassion for myself exactly where I am at.

Even if where I am at in the present moment is not feeling all that great.

Only by embracing everything can I make peace with anything.

Am I worried about where I will work when I get back, if I will make friends when I am traveling, and what my future home looks like? I would by lying if I said I wasn't at all. But I am working on making peace with all of these unknowns and just trusting that everything, as cliché as it sounds, will unfold as its meant to.

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